Nothings forever
I’ve learned that from the past
When I met him, I thought our love would last
Then he broke my heart in two, left me wondering what i did wrong,
made me move on.
Nothings forever
I’ve learned that from the past
When I met him, I thought our love would last
He lied, he cheated, he broke me to pieces
I had to move on, I had to get out
I couldn’t believe I fell for his lies
and in the end it was only his demise.
Nothings forever
I’ve learned that from the past
in the end of any heartache
you learn to move on
you learn nothings forever
you learn that in the end everything will be okay
and when you learn to walk away
there is nothing left to say.
Happy Cinco de Mayo 2012 – Photo by: Google.com/images
Cinco de Mayo is coming up, it’s a traditional holiday celebrated by Mexico. This holiday is primarily celebrated in Puebla, where this holiday is called ‘El Dia de la Batalla de Puebla’ Translation: The Day of the Battle of Puebla. It celebrates there freedom from the first years of the American Civil War and the victory over French Forces at the Battle of Puebla on May 5, 1862.
This year I decided to share 3 Drink recipes I found that are my favorites:
1. Margarita – 7 parts tequila, 4 parts triple sec and 3 parts lime juice, served on the rocks; a salted rim is optional. No strawberries, no mangoes, no blenders, and most importantly, no Cuervo Gold. Use a real tequila, one that’s marked 100% de agave, but don’t splurge; you don’t need $50-a-fifth sipping tequila for this drink. You can find the recipe Here
2. Paloma – A shot of tequila and three shots of Squirt, Jarritos Toronja or another grapefruit soda, served on the rocks. Try a good tequila here too, I promise you won’t regret it.
3. El Diablo – 1 1/2 ounce(s) Tequila (Again try a good tequila)
1 ounce of cranberry juice, Fresh squeezed lime juice, 1/2 ounce of simple syrup and a splash of ginger ale. Add a wedged lime if you like.
Hope you have a great Cinco de Mayo!
Enjoy and be responsible. 😉
Cinco de Mayo Margarita on the Rocks – Photo by: Google.com/images
My boyfriend cheated on me and I don’t know if to stay with him or leave him. He say’s he is sorry and it will never happen again, but I don’t know if to trust him anymore.
My Response:
Dear cheated on;
You shouldn’t stay in a relationship where the man does not respect you. A person who cheats on another person does not respect them or care enough to stop what they are doing before doing it. At the end of the day you have to ask yourself, if he is worth sticking around with, or if there is someone else out there who won’t hurt you the way he just did? Be strong, and remember that there is always better, and no person should have to be in a relationship where there is no trust. Trust is key to any relationship.
Broken in Two – Photo by: google.com/images
I had someone write to me once about their relationship, how it ended and how it began, and she wanted me to write a poem that described her relationship. SO…. Here it is, let me know what you think….
Broken in Two
I loved you with words unsaid
I loved you until you cheated in my bed
I loved you for all the wrong reasons
I loved you for all the right feelings
I loved you for what you didn’t say
for all the lies you made
You looked at me with truth
I didn’t see the real you
You were a liar and a fake
you cheated on me and that was your biggest mistake
I tried to forgive you
I tried to ignore the truth
I was blinded by an image that wasn’t me and you
you took my heart
you played it like a string on a guitar
you said you loved me
but the truth was you only loved yourself
you lied to yourself
made everything bigger than it was
pretended to be happy
lost without a doubt
one day the light turned on
and you knew you couldn’t pretend anymore
you fought it but you had to say it out loud
our relationship was a blur
as if it was never true
i wish it weren’t because it would have been easier to forget you.
When i moved on
you wanted me back
it was too late
you have to face the facts,
you fucked up
and there’s no turning back.
now i see you and you pretend to be happy
but i know you
you never changed
you can put on an act
pretend to be happy
pretend nothing in the world will break you
but we both know the truth
you’re broken in two
the person i once knew
and the new you
you can put on a smile
you can move forward in life
but deep down inside you’ll never be you
you will always be the broken man i once knew.
You thought you stopped loving me?
You thought you didn’t care?
How could you be so selfish to just sit back and stare?
I looked into your eyes as my eyes filled up with tears,
You stood there standing watching me drown out my fears.
You pretended to be happy.
You put on an act,
You thought I couldn’t see the truth,
You had to face the facts.
You put up a wall; you pushed me to the floor
I did all I could do
I even gave you my door.
Then one day I woke up and realized this is it.
I didn’t want to be with you, my fate was sealed with out your kiss.
CHORUS:
Now you’re the one crying inside
You’re the one that can’t let go
You’re the one wishing for me to come back
Wishing once again I’d be at your door.
You pushed me way to far.
I walked right out the door.
I told you I loved you but I couldn’t take the pain no more.
I asked you if you loved me.
I gave you one last chance.
All you did was look at me, you failed my last request.
With silence in your eyes, you stood in disbelief.
You didn’t say a single word, you didn’t share a peep.
If you would have listened closely,
You can hear my every word,
You can hear the tears fall down
And my heart break in a million burns.
You didn’t think I’d leave you,
You thought I’d always be around
You thought you had me.
You stood your ground.
Well you thought wrong…
You let me walk away
You lost me that day.
Now you’re left with nothing to say.
I thought I stopped loving you and I thought I didn’t care.
I pushed our love aside, as you looked into my eyes.
You cried for me and I let you down.
I don’t know how to fix this so I almost let you drown.
I pretended to be happy
But you knew the real me
You knew how to make me smile and I let you leave.
You were my everything and I let you down.
I let you walk away that day,
What the fuck was I thinking when I let you get away?
Why did I put up this wall?
Why did I let you go?
Chorus: I’m crying inside
I can’t break free
Sadness is killing me
Please come back to me.
I can’t let you go
You’re my everything.
I pushed you away until you stepped out the door.
You said you loved me but you couldn’t take the pain no more.
You asked me if I loved you
If we could make it work,
You said all there was to say
Then you walked away…
I stood in silence as you looked into my eyes
I couldn’t say a word, as tears rolled down your eyes…..
I saw I was breaking your heart.
But I stood in disbelief
Never thought you would really leave me!
I can’t lose you now
You’re all I ever had
I thought I’d never lose you but I was wrong to think I had
Because I still had you,
You were mine in every way
And when I let you walk away
I lost you that day!
Now I’m left with nothing to say….
I recently launched my new site; AGirlsKitchen.com – I love everything about food and I have always loved to cook. I am not a ‘Real’ Chef, but I’m the Chef in my house. If you love food as much as I do, you are constantly looking at pictures and recipes to do. Of course, it’s actually rare if I have the time or energy to make most of these recipes, and sometimes it’s hard to find ingredients that go with these dishes, but I look for them anyway and when I have time I make that recipe.
I haven’t been able to post as much as I would like but I am in the progress of trying to come up with a plan to at least post one recipe a week. If you have recipes you would like to share, I can post them as a guest recipe. So don’t be shy and email me or comment and I will get in contact with you.
Recently I have been searching different diets like the low carb diet, which I have been on and off on for over a year, you just cut out all white carbs during the week, bread, rice, pasta, potatoes, and you implement good carbs (vegetables), legumes and meat, chicken or fish. I thought it would be harder to do but I actually enjoy eating healthier and I can feel my body having more energy than usual. Our Saturday’s are our cheat days, so we indulge and I cook all the good stuff that I am usually looking at during the week. Recently we have been looking into the Paleo life style, although it does interest me, I do not think on a personal level that I would like to implement this 100% into my diet. I love food too much, and I know not everything is healthy for you, but you only live once, and as long as you moderate what you eat and you don’t go junk food crazy, then it doesn’t hurt to indulge a little in life. When I see food I love, my mouth waters, my taste buds start jumping and I can’t help but feel like a kid in a candy store. If I go to a restaurant and love their dish, I try to think of ways to recreate it at home, and I don’t mean that I get a little excited, I mean it’s Christmas all over again. Sure I’m not a Chef, but I do think I can cook pretty damn good, and if I can make a dish where my mouth says YUM and my heart skips a beat, then I’m going all in….
I have a few websites I would like to share with you and you should definitely check them out:
This poem below really is a bit of everything. I added a dream I had in there along with my Uncle passing away, so maybe it doesn’t make sense, does it have to? I haven’t really finished it either. It feels incomplete to me. But I just can’t seem to find my muse and finish it up. Maybe someone can give me some pointers or some ideas…..Well tell me what you think….
Somebody hurt me…
Somebody hurt me
It happened so fast,
When I woke up it was in my past.
My image was blurred
Gone from my life,
Everything in that moment
Disappeared with the light.
Why do we block things from our minds that we just can’t fight?
Everybody leaves
No body ever stays
Did I do something wrong, to make them all go away?
I saw her in my dreams
So beautiful and sweet
I tried to save her but my body became weak.
I tried to speak but no words came out.
I woke up and wished for another night,
Maybe this time I can make things right.
Everybody leaves
Nobody ever stays
Did I do something wrong to make them all go away?
I wake up with tears dripping from my eyes
My heart aches with every tick from the clock
Another moment as passed, another day trashed.
With every breath I take my visions crashed.
With every pitter patter my heart skips a beat
With every tear drop, it bleeds.
With every rain drop
Horizons on its bend
Who would have seen his fate; completely dead?
Some people dream big, they go for what they want and they don’t stop until they get there, others dream and are disappointed by life’s outcomes and they give up hope that any dream will ever come true. If we give up on our dreams, what do we have left? Dreaming can only give us hope, hope that one day we will grow up to be what we have dreamed of since we were little, or just hope that one day we will be where we want to be when we figure out where “this dream” really is… I can’t say I have wanted to be a writer since I was little, I really didn’t start writing until I was about 15 years old. I remember sitting on my recliner at home one day and just being inspired to write a poem. Once I started writing, I couldn’t stop. Even then, I didn’t really think about becoming a writer/editor of any sort, I wrote because I loved it, I never thought in a million years it would be something I would want to do for the rest of my life, not only because it inspires me but because when I write, it’s the one thing that makes me want more.
So I’m not exactly where I would want to be in my life right now, and no I don’t get paid for writing (at least not yet), but I do it and in some form it brings me satisfaction, knowing someone out there is reading this right now, knowing that in some ways I may have helped someone with my writing, and knowing that one day this will be my full time job (although I wouldn’t see it as a job, more of a blessing). I know what it feels like to feel like nothing is going right in life, and I know how it feels like when that door finally opens and you can see a little bit of hope peaking out, not knowing where it is going to lead, but knowing that wherever you are going is going to be where you’re supposed to be. I’m not saying dreaming is easy, life gives a lot of disappointments, but with disappointments comes strength and with strength comes the faith that dreaming big, is what will lead us to where we want to be.
Don’t ever stop dreaming big, when we stop dreaming, we stop hoping, and when we stop hoping nothing is left but a little black hole, open your dreams to a new beginning and have faith that one day all our hard work will lead us to a new beginning, a beginning to where dreams come true…
xo,
kristin nicole
