Category: Everyday Life

  • Letting Go

    Letting Go. Image from google.com/images

    Letting go is the hardest thing to do
    but it doesn’t mean I’ll forget you
    when sadness creeps in through the night
    you are the one person I dream about to make things right
    When everything looks like it’s falling apart
    you give me strength to move on

    When I heard you were leaving
    I couldn’t believe my ears
    My heart sank but I held on to fate
    I didn’t want to see it
    I didn’t want to hear it
    but deep down I knew this day would come
    that in darkness you would be gone.

    In my dreams I see you
    and I don’t want to wake
    I can smell you and feel you
    why was this your fate?

    I’ll hold on until I can’t anymore
    but know that I will always love you
    in my heart you will always be
    forever just you and me.

    ©kristin nicole – 2012

  • Everything – Fefe Dobson

    Everything – Fefe Dubson – image by: google.com/images

    Everything – Fefe Dobson

    I have heard this song so many times, yet never really truly listened to the lyrics, which for me is rare since I love lyrics and writing. After listening and reading the lyrics I now love this song even more. Any Fefe Dobson fans out there may think I’m nuts, I know this is an old song, but I still love it. 😉

    LYRICS:

    Ayo ladadayo
    Ayo ladadayo ladeeda
    Sometimes I give in to sadness
    Sometimes I don’t
    Doo doo doo doo
    At times I’m part of the madness
    Sometimes I won’t
    Give in to you
    You see in a way
    I have been drifting down a river
    To nowhere
    And you’ve given me nothing
    But if you’re ready to be my everything
    If you’re ready to see it through this time
    And if you’re ready for love then
    This I will bring
    But I’m not gonna wait for you forever this time
    Ladeeda ayo
    ladadayo ladeeda
    At times I feel myself smiling
    At times I’m not
    Doo doo doo doo
    Yeah yay
    What’s with the guilt that you styling baby
    Talk don’t look good on you
    You see in a way
    I have been looking for a reason to go there
    And you’re leading me nowhere
    And if you’re ready to be my everything
    If you’re ready to see it through this time
    And if you’re ready for love then
    This I will bring
    But I’m not gonna wait for you forever this time
    Ladeeda ayo
    ladadayo ladeeda
    Are you waiting for a special occasion
    To give me your heart
    Cause I need a little confirmation
    To make a real start
    Don’t wait till it’s too late
    Are you ready to show me?
    Are you ready to love me?
    You see in a way
    I have been drifting down a river
    To nowhere
    And you’re giving me nothing
    And if you’re ready to be my everything
    If you’re ready to see it through this time
    And if you’re ready for love then
    This I will bring
    But I’m not gonna wait for you forever this time
    And if you’re ready to be
    Ready to be my everything
    And if you’re ready to see it through this time
    If you’re ready for love then baby
    This I will bring
    But I’m not gonna wait forever this time
    ladayo ladadayo ladeeda

    ENJOY!

    xo,
    kristin nicole

  • Emotions

    Emotions. Image by: google.com/images

    My emotions are stirred and I can’t tell you why
    I’m feeling lost in a world I can’t hide
    When laughter and tear drops are all from the past
    I can’t help but hide the tears that last

    In moonlight and stars I cover the pain
    Without you in my life I feel insane.
    Long lasting phone calls and butterfly kisses
    I hold onto the hope and the rainbows in the sky
    that one day I’ll see myself the way you see me
    the person inside the mirror, I just can’t be.

    Feeling lost and incomplete
    time passing by
    leaving me behind.

    You’re everything I wished for
    a shooting star in the sky
    gummy bears and rain drops playing a song
    saying how much you mean to me, after all that’s been done.

    My emotions are stirred and I can’t tell you why
    I’m feeling lost in a world I can’t hide
    When laughter and tear drops are all from the past
    I can’t help but hide the tears that last.

    ©kristin nicole – 2012

  • Empty Lies

    Empty Lies. Image by: Google.com/images

    Your promises are empty lies
    you live in a world I despise
    pretend smiles
    and normalcy
    a gift from you to me.

    Look at yourself, what can you possibly see
    the person looking back at me
    sadness in your eyes, anger and hate
    all the things that have happened have led to your fate
    a little boy lost inside without a care,
    living each day as if it was fair.

    Get over it, stop the lies
    stop pretending this is all okay
    living a lie you believe to be true
    Empty lies covered in pain
    pretending each day is the same.

    ©kristin nicole – 2012

  • RIP Ivan Rodriguez, Jr.

    Sometimes in life the unexpected hits close to home. Sometimes we think we are invisible, that we will live forever, that tomorrow can wait another day, but sometimes that isn’t the case. There comes a time in some people’s lives where they need to mourn those they have lost, they have to try and understand the reasons behind something so unimaginable, try to cope and live each day with this weight on their shoulders. Life is given to us but it doesn’t come with a rule book, or a guide book on how to live it, it doesn’t tell us how to cope with the struggles and losses we have endured. We live each day as if tomorrow will come, but the truth is, it does not matter how old we are, whether it’s a few hours old or 90 years old, tomorrow isn’t always promised.

    Just this past weekend a good friend lost his step-brother in a car accident. When we think we are invisible at a young age we sometimes do crazy things, and this night was one of those nights. A family of four was caught in this accident, and a father and 15 year old son passed away, and the mother and 12 year old son are in critical condition. The driver who was racing is in critical condition as well, but my friends step-brother Ivan wasn’t so lucky, he too passed at the age of 20. We don’t think about the consequences or what or who we can hurt with the decisions we make in life, and we don’t understand why things happen the way they do, but we wake up each day knowing that the decisions we make in life do in fact impact others, whether they are close to you or just mere strangers walking by.

    This tragedy has opened eyes to many, and although we cannot understand why it happened, we will pray and hope that one day the families that have lost those they loved can move forward with their lives. We hope that the pain of losing those we loved won’t hurt as much one day. We pray and we hope that one day we can understand the reasons behind why things have to happen.

    Rest In Peace Ivan Rodriguez, Jr.

    xo
    kristin nicole

  • Some people never change

    Some People Never Change. Image by: Google.com/images

    Some people never change
    you hide behind a smile that I know is a frown
    you hide behind the laughter which I know is drowned
    you say things to make people believe
    but I know deep inside, you’ll never see.

    You will always think your worthless
    I’m starting to see it’s true
    with everything that’s happened
    you think by now you would just be you

    Maybe I’m stupid or just naive,
    maybe this is you
    a person of whom I can’t see
    everything about you is sad from the start
    a man with no face
    a lie to his name
    a perfect story
    a fictitious blame

    Stop before you speak again
    see what you’ve become
    stop pretending
    the lie has already won.

    ©kristin nicole – 2012

  • Never Before

    Never Before. Image by: Tony Carrera

    Hold me like you’ll never let me go
    Love me like I’ve never felt before
    Kiss me until the stars shine down
    Make love to me and watch my world go round.

    I never thought I would love again
    but you showed me what it is
    It isn’t flowers and hearts
    but what I feel within.

    You showed me what it was to cry
    How to wipe away my tears
    you showed me I was better than that
    you showed me how to live
    you showed me to believe in me
    and never give up hope
    you showed me your heart

    I look at you and I love you
    I see what you can be
    if only I believed in me
    the way you do
    I would go a thousand miles just to see your face
    cross the mountains just to hear your voice
    cross an ocean to feel your arms around me
    if only you can see
    that what we have together is not just a memory

    Hold me like you’ll never let me go
    Love me like I’ve never been loved before
    Kiss me until the stars shine down
    Make love to me and watch my world go round.

    ©kristin nicole – 2012

  • When you left

    When you left…. image by: google.com/images

    When you left

    When you left
    I couldn’t breath
    I had to take one step at a time to make myself believe
    The pain ran through my veins
    My heart skipped a beat
    And every time I thought of you
    I lied there in disbelief.

    When you left
    My world fell apart
    Everything around me disappeared from the start
    I didn’t think I could move
    But I kept everything inside
    Without you, my world can’t comply.

    I sit there staring at the sky
    Wishing you could hear me
    Wishing you were here
    Why did you have to leave me, when everything about us was real?

    Death comes in different forms
    But yours was very slow
    I got to hold on
    But it wasn’t you anymore
    I try to think of you when the days were warm
    When we loved like there was no tomorrow

    You showed me there was love
    You showed me there was hope
    And I will always love you
    I will always miss you
    I will always remember you

    Because even though you see me walking
    Inside a part of me died with you
    I’ll never get that back until I see you again

    Every day I think of you my heart skips a beat
    Deep down inside you will always be with me
    Until the day I see you again my love
    You will forever remain in my heart.

    © Written by: Kristin Nicole – September 2012

    Dedicated to all those who have lost someone. Two friends of mine lost their step father recently to cancer, and I cannot imagine the pain they have to go through. The pain their mother is going through. I started writing this because I was thinking about the people I have lost in my life, and I started thinking about them and what they had to endure throughout his sickness. My prayers and thoughts are with them and to all those who have lost a loved one.

    xo,
    kristin nicole

  • RIP Luis Ceballos – An Angel was taken

    RIP Luis

    In life we don’t know how we will die, or when we will die, but for others we are prepared and given no choice but to be taken from our family. Cancer is something not many people plan for, it isn’t something we can every truly understand, and no matter how hard we fight, sometimes Cancer defeats us, and with that God has taken a man that has touched so many. I only met Luis about two times, and in those two times you can tell he was an incredible man. This man meant so much to so many people. He walked into the life of my friends mom, she finally found the love her life and it saddens me to know she has lost him to the battle of cancer.

    A man who touched so many lives was lost yesterday, he has left behind a wife, and children and step children, grandchildren, family and friends. Luis had a journal in which he wrote how he felt, his last entry was on Father’s Day of 2012. You can see his journal entries here: http://lceballos61.livejournal.com/. If you truly want to meet a strong man, I recommend you read his journal. He is an inspiration to us all.

    Whenever you feel like your life isn’t going the way you expected, stop and be grateful for what you do have in your life. Luis taught us to stop and smell the flowers no matter how hard life hits you. He taught many never to give up and to live life to the fullest. I only hope that his family can take on his strength and that they will one day feel peace in their hearts. Today we mourn a man who was strong, a man who thought more about his own family than any other man I have ever met, and today I give thanks for knowing him, even if it was only for a short time. I give thanks to god for letting his wife and my friends have them in their lives and to love such a wonderful man. I am sorry they had to lose him to cancer and I will pray that they will get through this hard time.

    I love you all and my prayers are with you. Today God took not only an incredible man, but an angel. Rest In Peace Luis, we will all miss you.

    xo,

    kristin nicole

  • Chicago Here we come….

    Chicago – image by: google.com/images

    Another year has passed and every year my boyfriend and I try to go to a new City/State, this year however we loved Chicago so much last year that we decided to visit again.

    Chicago has so much history and architecture, that it’s amazing. The food is great, the people are pretty great and I would probably live there if it weren’t for those dreading cold winters. So, Ill stick to vacationing where I can feel my toes.

    Although we got to see a lot last year, this year we are going to see a few museums we missed, and we will probably rent a car again and head to Wisconsin for some Cheese. We aren’t the type of couple to make an itinerary, so we will just go with the flow, see what we will do on the day we do it.

    If anyone from Chicago or anyone who loves and knows the city has ideas, please let me know. I will let you know how the trip went and I will try to post some pictures along the way. The app for my website doesn’t work very well, and the last time I was there I was inspired and started writing, only to lose it all, so I may refrain from writing and saving, and I will just post if I can.

    Have a fabulous week. Oh and Happy Early Birthday to my wonderful boyfriend…..

    xo

    kristin nicole