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  • 30-50 CELEBRATION

    So this Saturday we celebrated my Mom’s 50th and my Brothers 30th birthday party together. It was definitely a celebration to remember. Everything was great from the ball room we had to the caterer. The sushi was great and I heard the pasta, little burgers and much more were just as good. I didn’t get to eat that much, I got full on sushi and drinks lol.

    The DJ didn’t have 3 songs we requested, which I was upset about, but the transitions from song to song was great and we had a great time dancing our butts off. My feet were hurting so much by the end of the night that I couldn’t walk. BEAUTY IS PAIN LADIES! I woke up in the morning with two small blisters under my pinkie toes 🙁
    But it was all worth it!!!

    My nephews looked adorable in their little suites, they were the only children there of course since all the babysitters were there at the party! LOL. My poor sister in law couldn’t dance that much since my oldest nephew who’s 4 years old didn’t want to leave her side. But overall she had a great time. Oh did I mention the cake was delicious! From PUBLIX, AND IT WAS GREAT!!! YUM YUM!!!

    Another year passes us by and as we get older we come to appreciate and acknowledge all the things we are grateful for in this life time. My family, boyfriend, and friends who all joined us on a spectacular celebration!

    Happy birthday Mom & David, hope you had a great one and many more to come!

    XO,
    Kristin Nicole

  • ANXIETY

    it coming from the past, things that just set me off? But why, wouldn’t I know why this happens?

    I found this website Helpguide.org it talks about the different symptoms of Anxiety. That’s what I get but I can’t seem to get rid of it. I read the following:

    Anxiety
    A sophisticated combination of negative, anxious emotions, which includes fear, worrying and fear of consequences. Anxiety is often accompanied by physical symptoms or sensations like a racing heart, breathlessness, nausea, chest pains and sweating for example.

    Anxiety is the name given to a perfectly natural response to a perceived threat. Depending on the nature of the threat, anxiety can range from mild concern to extreme ‘fight or flight’ responses, wherein the body prepares itself for extreme physical exertion as part of its in-built ‘self-preservation’ mechanisms.

    Anxiety Disorder:
    anxiety and anxiety disorders are conditions which make us react inappropriately to normal, fear-inducing thoughts and events. Inappropriate anxious reactions can take the form of heightened physical or mental experiences such as anxiety attacks, strange bodily sensations, strange thoughts and behavior we wouldn’t normally partake in such as aggression, obsessions or sadness for example.
    ‘Disorder’ is actually the wrong name for an anxiety condition because it suggests that there is something medically wrong with us… there isn’t. (I will continue to refer to anxiety conditions as ‘anxiety disorder’ for simplicity as it is how most people refer to this type of condition.)

    In anxiety conditions, the sensations, thoughts, behaviors and symptoms we experience are not dangerous or the sign of any sort of illness, they are ‘normal’ reactions to anxiety. In anxiety conditions however, the constant or repeated presence of these symptoms, thoughts and sensations is inappropriate.
    Anxiety experienced when there is no threat or danger present is called inappropriate anxiety. Experiencing constant, inappropriate anxiety means that the brain has become ‘re-set’ at a higher ‘resting’ anxiety level. Your brain and body think that this new level of anxiety is ‘normal’ and adopts the anxious behavior which then becomes instinctual, rather like digestion, circulation or breathing; these normal bodily functions are subconscious, automatic and require no ‘conscious’ action by you.

    The resultant anxiety disorder can cause many symptoms, thoughts and sensations of anxiety… inappropriate anxiety symptoms can ‘feel’ very real, even though they are not caused by ‘real’ danger. You see, although you may feel anxious or scared, these are the sensations of fear and NOT real fear… you can only experience TRUE fear when there is something present which is potentially harmful to you. Doesn’t that make sense?

    Your anxiety condition is caused mostly by repeated over-stimulation of the system in our body which helps us to react when we are exposed to a threat. This repeated stimulation resets our ‘normal’ anxiety levels in a small organ in the brain called the Amygdala. This process is called ‘conditioned learning’ or Operant Conditioning. It’s the process we all follow to learn anything new. It’s the process we all follow to learn anything new through repetition such as riding a bicycle or reading… by reinforcing that behavior we perfect it, which is exactly what has happened to cause your anxiety to become an anxiety disorder!

    The scientist most known for his research into Operant Conditioning is Burrhus Skinner. His research findings are the key to recovery from an anxiety condition.
    The Amygdala can be likened to a light switch. It is either anxiety ON or anxiety OFF. When it is anxiety OFF, it can only be activated by anxiety-provoking stimuli, such as stress, danger or extreme sadness, for example. But, it can get stuck in the anxiety ON position… this is when anxiety disorders are formed.

    By over-stimulation of this system due to stress or bereavement etc., the physical and mental self can create anxious habits which then escalate into anxiety disorder and panic disorder symptoms like:

    Social Anxiety / Agoraphobia
    Situational Anxiety
    Phobias
    Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD)
    Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD)
    Panic Attacks

    Yes, I said symptoms! These conditions are not separate anxiety conditions; they are symptoms of anxiety disorder.

    Why? Because each one relies 100% on your underlying anxiety disorder for their very existence. Take away the anxiety disorder and OCD, Social Anxiety, Phobias and all the associated sensations fade away! FACT!

    In the US, approximately 1 in 4 people will suffer from anxiety disorder at some point. That’s currently, at least 21 million sufferers!
    Anxiety disorders are debilitating and sometimes frightening conditions which cause sufferers to physically and emotionally withdraw for self preservation.
    Unless you have sufferer personally, it is impossible to understand how frightened and lonely sufferers can feel.

    The vicious circle of anxiety symptoms and thoughts escalates and the sufferer may start implementing avoidance techniques in order to stay in a place of safety. Phobias such as agoraphobia and social phobia may develop and the anxiety escalates as the sufferer starts to restrict their daily routines and even allow their symptoms to dictate to them when, if or whether they can work or take part in normal activities.

    Sufferers can become obsessive; this may develop into an obsessive-compulsive condition that causes the sufferer to carry out certain rituals. The anxiety sufferers may experience as a result of NOT carrying out such rituals fuels the need to do them. Some anxiety rituals include organizing or ordering, cleanliness or obsessions about health for example. Although many believe that these obsessions are part of a separate condition called OCD, if you eliminate the anxiety which drives them, they fade away.

    Sound familiar?

    A successful anxiety treatment should address this imbalance in the Amygdala directly in order to eliminate the ‘inappropriate anxiety’ at its source. The correct treatment should not dwell on apportioning blame to life circumstances or events – it should simply give you the solution you need to defeat your anxiety right now and return quickly and permanently to total wellness, anxiety-free and free of the symptoms, sensations, thoughts and obsessions which dominate your life completely.

  • Past Lives

    Do you believe in past lives? I read a book about past lives, how they find each other in the lives they are living now. I don’t know if this is really real, or things made up. But I do want to believe it, and I do think that it is possible.

    I wonder sometimes what I might have been in a past life, what is my purpose in this life, the reasons I came back?! Is it possible?

  • Jennifer Hudson

    My prayers go out to Jennifer Hudson and her family. I have been reading and following up with the case of her Mother, Brother and Nephews murder. I think it’s terrible that something like this happens in our world that we live in today. I could never imagine the sadness and anger she must be going through at this moment. I pray that she stay strong and they find the person or people who have done this to her family.

    How can someone be so cruel, so evil as to murder 2 adults and a child. I can’t come to comprehend the actions of this person. What they were thinking, feeling or going through when they decided to do this. I don’t know how Jennifer or her family is reacting to all this, but I can only imagine that it isn’t good. I don’t know what I would do if I was in her position, but I know that I couldn’t rest until they caught whom ever did this.

    I pray they catch who did this, and I hope that Jennifer Hudson and her family have the strength to keep moving forward!

    XO,
    Kristin Nicole

  • When I thought I couldn’t….

    I wrote this poem for my boyfriend a while ago. I found it and thought I would share it. I love to write. Sometimes I feel like I can’t say what I feel and the only way to let it show is through my words. Here are some of my words….

    When I thought I couldn’t love again, you walked into my life.
    Every day after that I knew I wanted to be in your life.
    There was something in your eyes that I saw so clear.
    Something about that smile that took away my fears.
    Something about the way you said good night,
    That brought out the light.

    Every day after that I knew you were the one.
    The one to love me and hold me and make everything okay.
    Make me feel the love inside that left me one day.
    You brought it out; you let me see that love still lived inside of me.

    When I thought I couldn’t love again, you walked into my life.
    I love everything about you.
    The way you make me feel.
    I love the way you look at me.
    I love the way you kiss.
    I love the way you tell me all the things you miss.
    I love how we talk, how you make me feel safe.
    I love how you show me all the things you want to say.

    When I thought I couldn’t love again, you came into my life.
    You gave me hope that one day our love will grow.
    You said you loved me and my world was at glow.
    My heart fell for you a while ago
    I’ve never been so happy to let it show.

    When I felt like my world was crumbling down,
    You saved me from a world that was tearing me apart.
    You opened up the door for me,
    You let me see the light,
    You let me see the answers that I prayed for every night.

    Just when I thought I couldn’t love again, you showed me I was wrong
    You saved me from this broken heart that lived here all along.
    I looked into your eyes and knew you’d be the one,
    The one to love me and hold me and make everything okay.
    The person deep inside that I would love every day.

    ©Written By: Kristin Nicole ~ February 13, 2007 ~ Tuesday

  • Obama vs McCain

    My boyfriend sent me these links regarding McCain and Obama debates. It’s really good, gives a lot of insight on the stuff you don’t really know about, or things that may have been construed in a different way.

    Presidential Debate 1

    Presidential Debate 2

    Presidential Debate 3

    Vice-Presidential Debate


    A quick excerpt from Presidential Debate 1:

    Against McCain: “McCain repeated his overstated claim that the U.S. pays $700 billion a year for oil to hostile nations. Imports are running at about $536 billion this year, and a third of it comes from Canada, Mexico and the U.K.”

    Against Obama: “Obama mischaracterized an aspect of McCain’s health care plan, saying ’employers’ would be taxed on the value of health benefits provided to workers. Employers wouldn’t, but the workers would. McCain also would grant workers up to a $5,000 tax credit per family to cover health insurance. ”

    Hopefully this will help you out on your choice the way it did me.

    Good Luck!

    REMEMBER TO VOTE November 4th!

  • Writers Block

    Do you ever get writers block? I do all the time, and I hate it. I go through a time when all I do is write, and I have all these things I want to say and then I don’t know how to say them.

    Any ideas on how to get them out…..

  • Car Insurance

    I got into an accident on July 4th. When I took my car to the collision center I told them I wanted everything new. The Field Adjuster for Allstate and the guy at the shop insisted that I should get a “recycled” door. I don’t want that, I want a new door. I tried arguing but they just kept trying to convince me this door was better. I had to take my boyfriend with me to argue, he didn’t even argue just made his points, and after I had spoken to the Field adjuster he agreed to get the new door if that’s what I wanted. I had to have the guy at the collision center call him to confirm in front of me. So after waiting a week or so for the used door now I have to wait for the new door even longer, all because they couldn’t just order the new door when I asked them. The rental car has to be turned in by Sunday and I’m left with out a car. I was told that my insurance company only covers 30 days then I have to pay for it. I can try to get reimbursed by the the guy who hit me insurance. But I found out he didn’t have insurance. It had expired June 2007. So no wounder his insurance company wasn’t calling me back. Now I have to figure out what to do, because my car now won’t be ready till Mid August. Yes MID AUGUST! So the car accident wasn’t at all my fault…100% the other guys fault, and I get screwed by not having a car, and having to go through all this. Unfortunately now I have to keep waiting, I can’t wait to get my car back!

    It’s just amazing to me how people can be so irresponsible, and how your own insurance company can’t cover your rental until your car is finished getting fixed.

    I just hope it’s sooner than later!

  • My thoughts 06-22-08

    Today I sit here in my office just after eating lunch thinking about all the things I have to do before leaving work, and yet the only thing that keeps to mind is wanting to leave. I’m exhausted…I haven’t been able to sleep for over a week. I wake up tossing and turning,and I don’t know what else to do. I tried drinking tea, going to bed earlier, than later. Do I need a sleeping pill? I am going to try and start working out again, I feel like maybe my body needs some type of exercise activity other than the type you do in bed with your other half 😉
    We will see if I can my ass up and just start working out.

    I want to search for houses too, we tried looking yesterday but I just get frustrated I feel like with all the houses out there, there is nothing for us. I wonder if we’ll ever find something. SIGH**

    Well I have to get back to work. I will let you know tomorrow if I worked out or not.

  • July 4th 2008, CAR CRASH!

    My boyfriend and I went to Naples for the long weekend and we were on the way to go eat sushi, and i had to pee really bad, and their was horrible traffic due to the holiday so cops were directing traffic everywhere, the cops finally let us go straight after being stuck at the stop sign for about 5 minutes, and we are driving probably 20 ft from the four way stop sign that we just left from and BAMB! A truck hits my car on the Drivers side, the door won’t open and the whole side of that car is messed up, the window broke, there was glass everywhere even on my side and the rearview mirror ended up on the dashboard, the air bags came out and everything. The guy came out of an alley, we were on a one lane street on both sides and he was only allowed to make a right, but instead he was trying to turn left and thats when he hit us! I started crying, thank god nothing happened to my boyfriend or I, but my new CAR! And we didn’t get to eat sushi, oh and then this lady comes out of her house and tells the cops she can sweep the glass from the street, he’s like if you want, and i was crying and had to pee so I asked if i can use her restroom and she bluntly rudly tells me No you may not, no you may not! I was in so much shock on how rude she was I didn’t say anything but afterwards I wanted to tell her off, she was so noisy, and trying to help the other guy that she tells the cop “Where the guy in the truck came out of is an exit only”, the cop was like okay and just walked away from her, she didn’t even make sense, YES EXIT ONLY, that is what he was doing…! Stupid Bitch! So the cop told me to pee in the bushes that on the other side it was dark and he won’t give me a ticket. I am still in shock and it sucks, we had to get a rent a car, and I had to leave my car at the hotel so they can tow it tomorrow over here, i tried to find a Nissan dealership that had a body shop over in Naples and nothing! Can you believe it! Nothing…not all dealerships have body shops….so they do have one here in Miami, so I have to call the insurance co. tomorrow and get all that taken care of. What a mission! Every time I looked at my car I wanted to cry! I still do, I have to drive this Jeep now and it wastes more gas and I don’t like it at all! I just want my carrito back! So that was my weekend, we got back today from Naples, we tried to make the best of it. I need another vacation though, I’m so exhausted! I hope you had a better weekend than I did.