Your promises are empty lies
you live in a world I despise
pretend smiles
and normalcy
a gift from you to me.
Look at yourself, what can you possibly see
the person looking back at me
sadness in your eyes, anger and hate
all the things that have happened have led to your fate
a little boy lost inside without a care,
living each day as if it was fair.
Get over it, stop the lies
stop pretending this is all okay
living a lie you believe to be true
Empty lies covered in pain
pretending each day is the same.
Sometimes in life the unexpected hits close to home. Sometimes we think we are invisible, that we will live forever, that tomorrow can wait another day, but sometimes that isn’t the case. There comes a time in some people’s lives where they need to mourn those they have lost, they have to try and understand the reasons behind something so unimaginable, try to cope and live each day with this weight on their shoulders. Life is given to us but it doesn’t come with a rule book, or a guide book on how to live it, it doesn’t tell us how to cope with the struggles and losses we have endured. We live each day as if tomorrow will come, but the truth is, it does not matter how old we are, whether it’s a few hours old or 90 years old, tomorrow isn’t always promised.
Just this past weekend a good friend lost his step-brother in a car accident. When we think we are invisible at a young age we sometimes do crazy things, and this night was one of those nights. A family of four was caught in this accident, and a father and 15 year old son passed away, and the mother and 12 year old son are in critical condition. The driver who was racing is in critical condition as well, but my friends step-brother Ivan wasn’t so lucky, he too passed at the age of 20. We don’t think about the consequences or what or who we can hurt with the decisions we make in life, and we don’t understand why things happen the way they do, but we wake up each day knowing that the decisions we make in life do in fact impact others, whether they are close to you or just mere strangers walking by.
This tragedy has opened eyes to many, and although we cannot understand why it happened, we will pray and hope that one day the families that have lost those they loved can move forward with their lives. We hope that the pain of losing those we loved won’t hurt as much one day. We pray and we hope that one day we can understand the reasons behind why things have to happen.
Some People Never Change. Image by: Google.com/images
Some people never change
you hide behind a smile that I know is a frown
you hide behind the laughter which I know is drowned
you say things to make people believe
but I know deep inside, you’ll never see.
You will always think your worthless
I’m starting to see it’s true
with everything that’s happened
you think by now you would just be you
Maybe I’m stupid or just naive,
maybe this is you
a person of whom I can’t see
everything about you is sad from the start
a man with no face
a lie to his name
a perfect story
a fictitious blame
Stop before you speak again
see what you’ve become
stop pretending
the lie has already won.
Hold me like you’ll never let me go
Love me like I’ve never felt before
Kiss me until the stars shine down
Make love to me and watch my world go round.
I never thought I would love again
but you showed me what it is
It isn’t flowers and hearts
but what I feel within.
You showed me what it was to cry
How to wipe away my tears
you showed me I was better than that
you showed me how to live
you showed me to believe in me
and never give up hope
you showed me your heart
I look at you and I love you
I see what you can be
if only I believed in me
the way you do
I would go a thousand miles just to see your face
cross the mountains just to hear your voice
cross an ocean to feel your arms around me
if only you can see
that what we have together is not just a memory
Hold me like you’ll never let me go
Love me like I’ve never been loved before
Kiss me until the stars shine down
Make love to me and watch my world go round.
When you left…. image by: google.com/images When you left
When you left
I couldn’t breath
I had to take one step at a time to make myself believe
The pain ran through my veins
My heart skipped a beat
And every time I thought of you
I lied there in disbelief.
When you left
My world fell apart
Everything around me disappeared from the start
I didn’t think I could move
But I kept everything inside
Without you, my world can’t comply.
I sit there staring at the sky
Wishing you could hear me
Wishing you were here
Why did you have to leave me, when everything about us was real?
Death comes in different forms
But yours was very slow
I got to hold on
But it wasn’t you anymore
I try to think of you when the days were warm
When we loved like there was no tomorrow
You showed me there was love
You showed me there was hope
And I will always love you
I will always miss you
I will always remember you
Because even though you see me walking
Inside a part of me died with you
I’ll never get that back until I see you again
Every day I think of you my heart skips a beat
Deep down inside you will always be with me
Until the day I see you again my love
You will forever remain in my heart.
Dedicated to all those who have lost someone. Two friends of mine lost their step father recently to cancer, and I cannot imagine the pain they have to go through. The pain their mother is going through. I started writing this because I was thinking about the people I have lost in my life, and I started thinking about them and what they had to endure throughout his sickness. My prayers and thoughts are with them and to all those who have lost a loved one.
So yesterday was my first day of my Masters Program, the beginning of my unknown future. I was excited, and stressed all at the same time. You have to understand, I overwhelm myself when I see so much information at once, sometimes I even jump the gun and email the professor questions that are right in front of me, but I don’t see them at the moment because I’m freaking out that I don’t understand what I need to do, or I’m missing something. Okay so I’m a bit dramatic, but I have to make sure I understand and get it done the right the first time. It is so important for me to succeed and move forward.
It’s been a long time that I felt I was doing something I truly love. I decided to get my Masters in Journalism so that I can hopefully get my foot in the door somewhere. I want to be able to write and edit. I love to write, and I can’t believe it took me this long to figure it out, but better late than ever.
The program I am taking is a year long, it’s accelerated and fast but in a year I’ll be done with my degree. I feel like I have been in school forever, trying to figure out what I want to do when I grow up, I think I have finally figured it out.
These boots are made for walking… image by: google.com/images
Hello, yes we are in September and yes we are still 90+ degree weather, that’s Miami for you. So can we take out the boots yet? According to Refinery29 we can. Yes I am excited and yes I LOVE my boots. If you click on the link above you can check out the different choices they picked for boots in Miami.
Although I love Miami, sometimes our “Fall” fashion is non existent due to our weather. I don’t care what others think, bring out the boots and bring out the scarfs…. I’m ready for my Fall clothing.
Another year has passed and every year my boyfriend and I try to go to a new City/State, this year however we loved Chicago so much last year that we decided to visit again.
Chicago has so much history and architecture, that it’s amazing. The food is great, the people are pretty great and I would probably live there if it weren’t for those dreading cold winters. So, Ill stick to vacationing where I can feel my toes.
Although we got to see a lot last year, this year we are going to see a few museums we missed, and we will probably rent a car again and head to Wisconsin for some Cheese. We aren’t the type of couple to make an itinerary, so we will just go with the flow, see what we will do on the day we do it.
If anyone from Chicago or anyone who loves and knows the city has ideas, please let me know. I will let you know how the trip went and I will try to post some pictures along the way. The app for my website doesn’t work very well, and the last time I was there I was inspired and started writing, only to lose it all, so I may refrain from writing and saving, and I will just post if I can.
Have a fabulous week. Oh and Happy Early Birthday to my wonderful boyfriend…..
I have read your blog and I have to tell you that I admire what you do and I love the advices you give, so I have brought to you my situation…
I have to mention that I am 20, married, part-time worker and college student. My husband (20 yrs old) works full-time at night, so we only see each other like 2 hrs a day, since he sleeps all afternoon long. I have gotten in a situation I hate to be in… An old crush (20 yrs old) appeared a couple of months ago, we decided to hang out one day. We went to the mall and walked around and just talked about life and what we’ve done all that time in which we didnt see each other. As the day went by I felt this amazing chemistry we had, like if we knew eachother from a long time. As the week went by we texted each other and decided to meet again ( I know this was a big mistake). We went to the zoo and after we were out of the zoo, we walked towards a little park that’s infront of the Zoo. We sat down on the grass and talked for a while, as we were talking, we ended up kissing… Since that day things have gotten more serious, we’ve met many times and had intercourse… My husband and I do not have time for each other, all he wants to do is sleep when he gets home since he is tired and I understand that. When he wakes up, its time for me to go to work and when I get off work, its time for him to go to work… My Ex-crush makes me feel like I havent felt in a long time.. last month, my Ex-crush and I thought I was preagnant, and he was very happy and willing to support me? Even though the child was not going to be raised by him. We found out I was not preagnant which was a big relief for me. I am starting to feel more than just attraction for him… I do not want to fall in love and I feel that is too late to stop what I have started… But really I can not picture my life without my husband. Even though we’ve only been married for 3 yrs, we’ve built alot of things together, credit, car, house, friends and etc., and i feel that nothing is really worth leaving my husband. I have a life with my husband, i do not want to divorce him, no one in my family has ever gotten one. I dont want to keep cheating on him, I have no idea what to do, maybe your answer will be to stop seeing my lover but really thats really hard since we are very good friends and he makes me happy, and I am now starting to have feelings for him. My lover mentioned that having a baby with me would be the best thing that could happen to him, and that confused me a lot. He says that we should try to have one, but I dont think it is right. What would be your advice?
~Too Young
My Response:
Dear Too Young;
I want to first start off by saying; Thank you so much for following my site. I hope that I can help you with what I am going to say.
I am not going to say that it is impossible to love two people at once, because it is possible, but you cannot be with two people at once, living a lie and trying to keep them both at arms reach. No one can tell you what choice to make, not even me. You have to truly see who you are truly in love with and be with that person. If you truly love your husband, you would not want to be with another man. I understand that it’s hard because of your time schedules to spend time together, but you need to communicate to your husband, and you need to try and make time for each other, or the relationship is not going to work. If you really want to make things work with your husband you need to end things with your friend. Do not take into consideration that no one in your family has ever gotten a divorce, if you aren’t in love with your husband it is better to move your separate ways now, then later down the road when you have children. It’s hard when you have a life built with someone you care for, but do you think it is okay to stay with someone just because you built credit, a house and a life with them? Life and marriage are so much more than that, and you will learn that one day. You are still young and you married young and there are many things in life you still have to experience. Do not stop yourself from doing what you want for you, because of what family or others might say. If you feel you really want to be with this other man, then you need to be honest with your husband and let him go. The fact that this man wants to have a baby with you, shows that he really cares for you, in his own way. I do not think that he will be okay with another man raising your child, I think he wants you to get pregnant because he believes this will give you the excuse to leave your husband. You are young and in my opinion, I would make sure to use birth control methods. You need to figure out what you want before bringing a child into this world. You also do not want to lie to your child about who their real father is, that is wrong on all levels. It isn’t fair to hold onto both men, when in the end you are only hurting yourself. No one can tell you which man to choose, you need to make that choice on your own. I think deep down you know the choice you want to make, I think you are just scared to make it. Life is too short to not make the choices in life that will make you happy. If you are grown up enough to get married, grown up enough to cheat, you are grown up enough to make a decision.
I am thinking about cheating on my boyfriend with his best friend. We have been flirting recently and hung out the other day alone, we didn’t do anything but we came close to kissing. Should I see where it goes or leave it alone?
My Response:
Dear Flirt;
It is never a good idea to hook up with anyone while in a relationship, that’s one. Second, hooking up with your boyfriends best friend is probably one of the worst things a girl can do. Not only are you messing with your relationship but that’s your boyfriends friend. At this point, I can say that the best friend is not being a good friend to begin with if he’s hanging out with his best friend’s girlfriend alone and flirting. This is just temptation you don’t need. At the end of the day, the best friend gets what he wants, which is you, and at the end of the day the friendship will probably survive, and you will be the only one left alone. Don’t ruin your relationship, if you aren’t happy then break up with your boyfriend, but I repeat ‘DON’T HOOK UP WITH HIS BEST FRIEND’.
