Your promises are empty lies
you live in a world I despise
pretend smiles
and normalcy
a gift from you to me.
Look at yourself, what can you possibly see
the person looking back at me
sadness in your eyes, anger and hate
all the things that have happened have led to your fate
a little boy lost inside without a care,
living each day as if it was fair.
Get over it, stop the lies
stop pretending this is all okay
living a lie you believe to be true
Empty lies covered in pain
pretending each day is the same.
I have read your blog and I have to tell you that I admire what you do and I love the advices you give, so I have brought to you my situation…
I have to mention that I am 20, married, part-time worker and college student. My husband (20 yrs old) works full-time at night, so we only see each other like 2 hrs a day, since he sleeps all afternoon long. I have gotten in a situation I hate to be in… An old crush (20 yrs old) appeared a couple of months ago, we decided to hang out one day. We went to the mall and walked around and just talked about life and what we’ve done all that time in which we didnt see each other. As the day went by I felt this amazing chemistry we had, like if we knew eachother from a long time. As the week went by we texted each other and decided to meet again ( I know this was a big mistake). We went to the zoo and after we were out of the zoo, we walked towards a little park that’s infront of the Zoo. We sat down on the grass and talked for a while, as we were talking, we ended up kissing… Since that day things have gotten more serious, we’ve met many times and had intercourse… My husband and I do not have time for each other, all he wants to do is sleep when he gets home since he is tired and I understand that. When he wakes up, its time for me to go to work and when I get off work, its time for him to go to work… My Ex-crush makes me feel like I havent felt in a long time.. last month, my Ex-crush and I thought I was preagnant, and he was very happy and willing to support me? Even though the child was not going to be raised by him. We found out I was not preagnant which was a big relief for me. I am starting to feel more than just attraction for him… I do not want to fall in love and I feel that is too late to stop what I have started… But really I can not picture my life without my husband. Even though we’ve only been married for 3 yrs, we’ve built alot of things together, credit, car, house, friends and etc., and i feel that nothing is really worth leaving my husband. I have a life with my husband, i do not want to divorce him, no one in my family has ever gotten one. I dont want to keep cheating on him, I have no idea what to do, maybe your answer will be to stop seeing my lover but really thats really hard since we are very good friends and he makes me happy, and I am now starting to have feelings for him. My lover mentioned that having a baby with me would be the best thing that could happen to him, and that confused me a lot. He says that we should try to have one, but I dont think it is right. What would be your advice?
~Too Young
My Response:
Dear Too Young;
I want to first start off by saying; Thank you so much for following my site. I hope that I can help you with what I am going to say.
I am not going to say that it is impossible to love two people at once, because it is possible, but you cannot be with two people at once, living a lie and trying to keep them both at arms reach. No one can tell you what choice to make, not even me. You have to truly see who you are truly in love with and be with that person. If you truly love your husband, you would not want to be with another man. I understand that it’s hard because of your time schedules to spend time together, but you need to communicate to your husband, and you need to try and make time for each other, or the relationship is not going to work. If you really want to make things work with your husband you need to end things with your friend. Do not take into consideration that no one in your family has ever gotten a divorce, if you aren’t in love with your husband it is better to move your separate ways now, then later down the road when you have children. It’s hard when you have a life built with someone you care for, but do you think it is okay to stay with someone just because you built credit, a house and a life with them? Life and marriage are so much more than that, and you will learn that one day. You are still young and you married young and there are many things in life you still have to experience. Do not stop yourself from doing what you want for you, because of what family or others might say. If you feel you really want to be with this other man, then you need to be honest with your husband and let him go. The fact that this man wants to have a baby with you, shows that he really cares for you, in his own way. I do not think that he will be okay with another man raising your child, I think he wants you to get pregnant because he believes this will give you the excuse to leave your husband. You are young and in my opinion, I would make sure to use birth control methods. You need to figure out what you want before bringing a child into this world. You also do not want to lie to your child about who their real father is, that is wrong on all levels. It isn’t fair to hold onto both men, when in the end you are only hurting yourself. No one can tell you which man to choose, you need to make that choice on your own. I think deep down you know the choice you want to make, I think you are just scared to make it. Life is too short to not make the choices in life that will make you happy. If you are grown up enough to get married, grown up enough to cheat, you are grown up enough to make a decision.
I was at school (college) and I left a little early and headed to my boyfriend’s house to surprise him. When I got there, I was the one surprised to find his ex-girlfriend’s car parked in the drive way. When I knocked on the door he told me they were just discussing a few things but he wouldn’t let me in. He then proceeded to tell me that nothing was going on and that he would call me later. Is he cheating on me with his ex-girlfriend? If nothing is going on then why not let me in the house? She shouldn’t be there to begin with, do I wait to see what he has to say or should I just move on? We have been together for 6 months and I really care for him but I don’t know what to think about this. Please Help.
~Confused
My Response:
Dear Confused;
Any time an EX is near it is never good. There is no reason for her to be in his house let alone push you away and tell you that he will call you later. I have been in situations where I didn’t do what I should have at the time. You need to sit down with your boyfriend and ask him face to face what is going on. Talk to him and tell him that you do not feel comfortable with his ex-girlfriend in his house, let alone hanging out at all. There is no reason for her to be at your boyfriend’s house. This is only causing trouble where there wasn’t any. I would talk to your boyfriend and see what is going on, but having experience with a similar situation, you are better cutting your ties now and finding a man who isn’t confused as to which girl he really wants to be with. If he cared for you as much as you care for him, he wouldn’t have had his girlfriend in his house alone, and he wouldn’t have sent you off to call you later and stay with her. Find a real man and move on.
Hi, I’m 18 and I’m having trouble trusting my boyfriend. Last night I had a dinner rehearsal for my friends wedding so I couldn’t hangout with him, so he went out with a bunch of his friends and he said he would be home by 1:30 and he would call me. He called me and of course I was sleeping so he left a voice-mail around 12:30 saying that hes going out to eat with a couple of his fiends and my best-friend, and then he carried on by saying that my best friend is sleeping over his house because she doesn’t want to go home… by the way (BTW) she is 18 and my bf is 19. She also left me a text sating ” hey I’m sleeping over your bf’s house ”. I am super mad at this situation right now and don’t want to talk to either one of them. I know if I did this to my boyfriend he would brake up with me ……. I don’t think this is okay at all. What should I do?
Sincerely, ~Feeling Betrayed My Response:
Dear Feeling Betrayed;
You need to talk with your boyfriend. Having your friend or any girl sleep over his house is unacceptable. There is no reason for them to be hanging out together outside of the group of friends. This is only feeding temptation. If this is supposed to be your best friend, I would talk to her too because I am pretty sure she wouldn’t want you sleeping over her boyfriends house (if she has one). Right now you have to trust both of them and hope that they are telling you the truth with why she slept over. I would keep my eyes and ears open and talk to both of them and let them know how you feel.
I found out my husband of 16 years has been having an affair and I can’t deal with it please help?
I found out 4 months ago that he had been sleeping with the secretary at work. Her husband found out and phoned me and told me all about it. My husband told me it had been going on for about 5 months. He said that he did it because it was offered to him on a platter and that our relationship was fine, and that he loves me and does not want to lose me. What hurt the most is he brought her to our house while the kids and I were away and had sex with her in our lounge-room. I have know idea how to get through this, I feel like nothing and I am depressed all the time. I think the best thing is for him to leave but I just don’t know. I know everyone has different ways of dealing with a cheater but I would just like some advice from people who have been in my shoes. Thanks so much…
My Response:
Dear Destroyed;
It’s hard to find out someone we trusted and loved cheated on us. His excuse is plain out BS! Don’t give me that I love you and nothing is wrong yet I’ve been sleeping with my secretary for 5 months because it was handed to me???? SO WHAT???? SO if a guy handed you something in return would you take it? Marriage is a sacred sacrament and it is not something you just ignore. Don’t let him sweat talk you into thinking that what he did was okay. You deserve more than that, you gave him 16 years and now he’s done the ultimate betrayal. It is not going to be easy but I think the first step is making him leave the house. You need to get your thoughts together and you need know that what he did had nothing to do with anything you did, and only selfishness on his part. The fact that he brought this women into your house, where you have your family shows no sign of respect for you or your children. This is unacceptable….and disgusting … You have to be strong for your kids, and you have to know that even though it doesn’t seem like it right now there is always someone out there for someone (even if you don’t see that now), and even though right now you feel like your heart has been ripped out, and you will never feel happy, TRUST ME, You will. Life moves on and we move on and we learn to live and move on from the hurt that others cause us. It is not going to be easy, it’s going to be a hard journey, but you need to be strong and know that you deserve someone a lot better than someone who would lie to you and cheat on you and then use an excuse like the one he did.
Good luck. Remember you need to love yourself and you need to heal with time before moving on. It will take time, but time does heal all wounds.
He yelled at me I’m driving him nuts!?!? I don’t know what’s up with him. He says I can’t do nothing by myself, how I’m always bored, how we have to do everything together, how I should find someone else to go out with and so on! The truth is I have more friends than him, I’m more outgoing, I’m more independent than him, everything he accused me for is a pure lie! The next minute he nagged how I don’t shower him with attention enough in public! Just after he told me I’m clingy. When I said OK, we won’t see each other every day, I’m fine with it. He said he wants to see me and he is always first to invite himself to come to me and so on. What is this about?!?!
My Response:
Dear Mixed Signals;
It’s time to sit down with your boyfriend and have a heart to heart. Maybe he’s confused as to where this relationship is going, but he is definitely sending mixed signals. One minute he’s asking you to give him space and almost acting like a jerk so that you would break up with him, and the next he wants to spend more time with you and be with you. Sit down with him, and ask him openly what is going on? If you want to stay in this relationship tell him you love him and are committed but you can’t keep going back and forth with him sending you mixed signals. Sometimes men don’t know how to communicate there feelings and so they act out in other ways, men sometimes also try to fight with us for no reason when they are trying to get out of a relationship but don’t know how. Talk to him, without communication you won’t get passed this.
