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  • Struggling mind

    My mind struggles to think
    I can feel every aspect in my mind trying to focus
    but every time I close my eyes and try to think of nothing
    I can’t!
    It’s in constant motion,
    constant thinking
    negative thoughts, positive thoughts
    but mostly just thoughts.

    How can you get your mind to relax, to just not think of anything at all. Fully focus on nothing and let your body just relax.

    Some say sleep is a form of relaxation.
    Many people don’t remember their dreams, but I dream almost every night.
    Mostly nonsense stuff that doesn’t even make sense.
    When I wake up I feel exhausted sometimes, feeling like that dream had me running for miles.

    My mind has control of me, my thoughts, my dreams my desires. How do you make it stop just for one second?
    Just stop for one second so that I can breath with out feeling the pressure in my head.
    Stop for one second so I can think straight.
    When I read, I’m thinking
    When I lie there, I’m thinking
    When I dream, I’m thinking
    It never just stops, it never just lets me relax, it never just lets me BE ME!

    It’s like a fish in a bowl, swimming in circles for hours, for days until he takes his last breath. I sometimes feel like that, a routine, work, school, play, work, school, play. It never just stops, I never stop.

    xo,
    kristin nicole

    © –written by: kristin nicole — January 22, 2010 @ 10:15 am– Inspired by a dream, stuck in a dream–

  • Is Romance Overrated?!?

    Romance By Definition:

    a. A love affair.
    b. Ardent emotional attachment or involvement between people; love: They kept the romance alive in their marriage for 35 years.
    c. A strong, sometimes short-lived attachment, fascination, or enthusiasm for something: a childhood romance with the sea.

    Is it overrated?!?

    As a young girl, you watch all these movies that make you wonder, is Love really out there?!? Is there really that guy out there that will romance me and whisk me away into a fairytale ending?!? Unfortunately Life doesn’t work that way. There really is no Prince Charming to whisk you away into a castle, and you don’t become a princess over night. However, love is out there, that I do believe. But is Romance overrated?!? Do we expect men to ROMANCE us to wine and dine us until we simply just fall into there laps, giving them all our attention and love, Or do we just want Romance because that’s what the world tells us we want?!?

    My thoughts

    I think every girl wants romance, it doesn’t matter if that movie isn’t real, it just matters that a guy would try to make a night romantic, it just melts a girls heart. It shows how much the man cares or loves the women, and in every aspect in the girls heart, it tells her “He really does care”. To go out of his way, and make this a special night just for me?!? What more can a girl ask for?!?

    There are some men out there that love to be romantic and constantly romance their women. However, there is that guy that just doesn’t see a point to romancing their women if they already have her. It’s not something you do to catch the girl, it’s something you do to show how much you love her, to show that you care enough to think about doing something so unexpected. I wouldn’t want romance all the time, it would kill the idea of being surprised every once in a while. But in a dark room, where your thoughts lie, you always dream about that one night, when the guy will come to romance you in ways you’ve never known.

    Examples

    The intimate setting of rose petals, candles, some massage oils, strawberries and campaign. (Something simple, that I’m sure most women would love).

    I once heard a story about a proposal, it was so cute:

    The story:

    The girl got home from work to find a note from her boyfriend, it said pack 2 over night clothes for day and night and at 5pm a limo will be showing up to pick you up to take you to the airport. Don’t worry about where I’m taking you, just get ready. At 5pm sharp, there was a knock on the door, and the limo driver stood there with one single rose in his hand. He handed it to her and on the rose read a note: “From the moment I fell in love with you, I knew you were the one”. The limo driver took her bags and headed to the airport. At the airport she stood in the check in line and the lady at the counter logged her in and gave her another single rose. The girl looked around wondering how she knew who she was. There was another note “With every day that passes my love for you grows”. She got to the plane and to her surprise she was sitting first class. She boarded the plane to New York, and the flight attendant came up to her and handed her another single rose. Now she was freaking out. She asked if she knew her boyfriend, and the flight attendant just said no, she was just told to give this rose the person sitting in Row A Seat 2. Another note…”I know you are freaking out, but don’t, I’ll see you soon”. She landed in New York and a limo driver was waiting with her name, he took her bags and handed her another single rose with another note that read “I’ll see you soon”. She was starting to get nervous, what could all this mean. She didn’t think he would be proposing considering they had talked about it, but it just didn’t seem as if he was ready any time soon, so this had to be something different, right?!? The limo driver took her to Central Park, and told her to get on that carriage there. She asked the man if he knew her boyfriend and he said please hop on and I’ll take you to him. He handed her a single rose and a note that read “I’ve never known anyone like you, smart, funny, sexy, my best friend”. Has she rode her way through Central Park she saw candles lighting up the sidewalk and at the end of it was her boyfriend with a dozen Lilly’s and roses, as she walked up to him he got down on one knee, her hands began to shake because she couldn’t believe what was happening, he opened the box and told her how much he loved her, he couldn’t see himself with any other women, she was his best friend and he wanted her to be his wife. “Will you marry me”? With tears in her eyes she said YES!

    Now that’s a Romantic Proposal!

    So is Romance Overrated?!? Or is it just something we want to have?

    What lies behind us, and what lies before us are tiny matters compared to what lies within us. ~ by Ralph Waldo Emerson ~

    When you love someone, all your saved-up wishes start coming out.
    ~ by Elizabeth Bowen (1899-1973) ~

    xo
    kristin nicole

  • Is it ever too late?

    Is it ever too late?

    Sometimes in life we wonder if it’s ever to late to do some of the things we wished we had done when we were younger. Is it too late to go back to school and finish my degree? Is it too late to tell him/her I love him/her? Is it too late to buy those shoes I saw in the window? Is it too late to move to another city? Is it too late?

    Nothing in life is ever easy, no one can tell you to turn right instead of left, and at the end of the day it’s never too late….

    I hate to say I’m passed the age where I should have already received a Master’s Degree, let alone my Bachelors, but I’m in school and little by little working my way to getting that degree. I thought at one point it was too late, too late to continue and do what I want to do, too late to finish and too late to follow my dreams. I’m living proof that it’s never too late. Sure it’s taking me long enough, but I have to work full time and go to school, and although it isn’t easy each day moves forward and each day is a day closer to that degree. Going to school online I meet people who are a lot older than I am, also living proof, that ‘It’s NEVER too late’.

    I still wonder about the ‘what ifs’, I wonder where I would be and what I would be doing, but in life ‘EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON’, and I truly believe that. (That’s another story I would have to tell you about another time…). But like I said….things happen for a reason. We meet people in our lives who cross our paths only to introduce us to people that will be in our future. If we sit here all the time wondering about the what ifs, and is it ever too lates… in the world, then life will pass us by and we’ll never know what could have been.

    It’s never too late to live your dream, buy those shoes in the window or tell that person you love them. Don’t stop dreaming, don’t stop believing in hope, and have faith and strength to do the things you want to do in life. I’m not perfect and sometimes I get scared to move to the next step in life, but if we don’t keep walking forward, then we’ll miss out on all the great things life has to offer us. With every hard moment in life a good moment is right around the corner. With every little fear inside of us, lives the strength and hope to keep us moving forward. It’s never too late to do the things we want to do in life. Life is too short, don’t live it wondering if it’s too late, just get out there and go for it.

    xo,
    kristin nicole

  • Life doesn’t have a Guide Book…

    Random Thoughts:

    Pain is something we all feel at one point in our lives. When you hurt inside it’s a pain that is unexplainable, a pain that blinds us from what is really in front of us. Sometimes when we hurt we eventually move forward, we eventually see that the pain was for a reason, other times the pain turns into anger. Life is a journey that we are all on together, a journey we have to figure out on our own. We cross paths with people in our lives that change who we are, we either grow from them or we stay stuck in the paths we are crossing. I believe that we meet people in our lives for a reason, we might not see it in the moment, but they are there for one reason or another.

    Sometimes we feel lost, and confused and we aren’t quiet sure where to go from there. I knew someone who was lost, this person forgot who they were, they weren’t happy with themselves or their life and they pushed everyone they knew away. Closing one door leading them into a depression I couldn’t get them out of. When someone tells you that they don’t love you anymore, you try to come up with reasons why they loved you to begin with, when a person stops loving themselves the only thing you can do is let them find their own way back. How do you help someone who doesn’t want to be helped? There is no guide book in life to tell us how to act, what to do, where to go, there is no help guide to tell us how to love or what to do when we feel sad or upset. We live this life for a reason and we try to figure it out along the way.

    At times I still don’t know what I want to be when I grow up. I have a vision of what I want to do, but fear holds me back at times, wondering if what I really want will ever truly happen, if I’m good enough for what seems to be the impossible. I try to think positive and I love to feel like anything is possible, but there is always that little negative voice inside who stops us from making our dreams come true. Why do people always second guess themselves, why do we feel like there are some things in life that just can’t happen?

    My friend gave me this quote from Steve Jobs which I find to be refreshing, I have it up on my board at work so that I can see it and remind myself of the possibilities life has to bring.

    “You’ve got to find what you love. And that is as true for your work as it is for your lovers. Your work is going to fill a large part of our life, and the only way to be truly satisfied is to do what you believe is great work. And the only way to do great work is to love what you do. If you haven’t found it yet, keep looking. Don’t settle. As with all matters of the heart, you’ll know when you find it. And, like any great relationship, it just gets better and better as the years roll on. So keep looking until you find it. Don’t settle. ~Steve Jobs (2005 Stanford Commencement Speech).

    xo,
    kristin nicole

  • Lifes many paths

    Life

    Do you ever look around you and see how many different people there are out there in the world. Ever wonder what each one is thinking? If the man driving next to you is a great guy or a murderer? You never know. You never truly know anyone because no matter how honest or how open a person is with you, everyone has secrets. I’m not saying there bad secrets just Secrets. A secret can be about anything, something sad that happened to you when you were younger that you just never shared with anyone. A feeling or a thought you had that you never thought sharing with someone would help. Secrets you hold within yourself, secrets that may keep you going stronger or secrets that tear you apart.

    Secrets

    Maybe you don’t think it’s a secret, because you don’t mind telling someone about it, you just never saw a reason to tell anyone about it. The smallest things in life change who you are. The biggest things in life, change your life, and the moments you think don’t matter, really do matter.

    Hard Times

    When something in life feels so hard and so sad, you think, this is it…am I ever going to be okay?! Somehow we are all stronger then we think and somehow we all keep living. Does this mean that we’ll eventually forget whatever it was that hurt us or made us sad or angry? I’m sorry to say NO, but it does get better with time. I know everyone says “things will get better with time”, but how much time? That is an answer only time can tell. It’s hard to hear, and it’s hard to go through, but these are the tribulations in our lives that make us stronger. These are the moments that you have to sit back on and think to yourself, what could have been different? Could it have been different? It was out of my control, so now how do I make things better?

    Life Changes

    Life is a mystery and no matter how many people try to figure it out, I don’t think you can. Every person, every life is Different. The way you look, the way you speak, smell, smile, laugh, talk, eat…. The list goes on and on. We are all different and that is what makes us unique. This is what separates us from others and makes you who you are.

    In life you come to learn that it does truly pass you by. With a blink of an eye, you can loose the person you loved. In a second, life can change before you with out giving you warning and with time you learn to realize that this is LIFE.

    Destiny

    I sit back and wonder where my life will be in a few years, will it be where my hopes and dreams are, or will it take me down a different path. A path that unknowingly will be my destiny. We build roads but we choose the paths we walk on.

    xo,
    kristin nicole

  • Happy Birthday Mom

    Have you ever had a best friend in your life? A friend that isn’t just your friend but your mom? That’s how I feel about my mom…. If I have a problem with anything I know I can always count on her, I can only hope to be a great mother one day, the way she has been to me and my brother and sister.

    I want to dedicate this poem to my mom… Happy Birthday Mom, I hope you are having a wonderful day; today and many more years to come.

    Today Is your Day…

    Today is the day I thank God
    Not only for making you my mother
    But for making you my Best Friend.

    Today is the day I thank God
    For having you in my life.
    When I needed you the most you were always there for me.
    When I thought my heart was breaking you cried with me.
    When I thought I wasn’t good enough, you encouraged me.
    When I thought life was too hard, you showed me the way.
    Without you in my life I would be lost
    You showed me to be me, you love me for me and you accept every part of me.

    You are not only my best friend, but my mother
    And I am the luckiest daughter in the world to have a mother like you in my life.

    Today I thank God
    Because without you I would be lost.
    Happy Birthday Mom! I love you!

    xo,
    kristin nicole

    “A mother is the truest friend we have, when trials heavy and sudden, fall upon us; when adversity takes the place of prosperity; when friends who rejoice with us in our sunshine desert us; when trouble thickens around us, still will she cling to us, and endeavor by her kind precepts and counsels to dissipate the clouds of darkness, and cause peace to return to our hearts.” –Washington Irving

  • Happy Birthday!

    Happy Birthday

    Today is the day you were born
    Today is the day I give thanks to the lord
    Without you here, you wouldn’t be part of my world.

    My world changed the day you came into my life
    With every wish I wished upon a star
    that one day I would find love
    love found me a million miles away

    Love entered my heart when I thought it was gone
    you showed me the light,
    you showed me the way,
    if it wasn’t for you
    my world would have gone astray.

    Today is your birthday
    and I wish you the world
    I know that good things are coming your way
    with every wish I make
    with every breath I take
    I know deep down that from here on out
    only good things will come our way.

    Happy Birthday to the man I love
    Happy Birthday
    Happy Birthday

    I love you…..

    xo,
    kristin nicole

    © ~Written By: Kristin Nicole August 23, 2011 – Monday~

    Happy Birthday to a wonderful boyfriend, I hope you are enjoying our trip. I love you

  • Tomorrow’s not Promised

    There comes a time in life when you have to realize this is it… when everything around you changes and you feel like you have changed as well. This is called “growing up”.

    In a life full of questions, in a life full of fun, there isn’t a moment that passes that I wonder is this the one?

    Is this the one time that I’ll make this mistake
    Is this the one time I’ll cry
    Is this the one time I’ll laugh
    Or is this all a lesson of which I’ve passed?

    Time is an essence
    a tick of the clock
    when you look around you
    nothing has stopped.

    Every     day passes
    another day gone
    another day older
    another day closer.

    Live your life to the fullest
    and have no regrets
    because tomorrow’s not promised
    but today…
    today I live
    today I grow
    today i tell you i love you
    Tomorrow, I just don’t know…

    xo,
    kristin nicole

    © written by: kristin nicole 2009

  • The Pride of Our Country – Happy 4th of July

    The Pride of Our Country

    Today as before, our brave do fight
    For a land they love, a flag so right

    The pride of our country, yes they are
    The strength of our nation, best by far

    Just as our brave from each war gone by
    They march for us proudly, flag held high

    From all over this land they come to serve
    They’re taught by the best, this they deserve

    When troops give their all, the world does see
    Whether serving on land, in the air, or at sea

    The pride from this country, march through war
    With home drawn strength, held deep in their core

    Our best are so awesome, their loved ones well know
    May God guide their journey where they – for us – go

    What these brave must have is support from their own
    The love from their people, firm thankfulness shown

    Our greatest achievement is that we’re still free
    Please take time and ponder who caused this to be

    by Roger Robicheau
    ©2005Roger J. Robicheau

    You can see Roger Boicheau’s poem HERE

    – Happy 4th of July Everyone, hope you have a wonderful day.

    xo,
    kristin nicole

  • What Stupid Thing Happened to you?

    What Stupid Thing Happened To You?

    Just yesterday I had to go to Publix on 134 SW 13th St in Downtown Miami, to get a money order. My boyfriend and I went in together and were both getting money orders. We had a sum amount and were splitting it, however, he was getting one and I was getting one. Two separate accounts, nothing to do with the other. The lady asks us for two forms of ID. I asked her why that is, and she said because you are getting a money order for more than $3000. I explained that we weren’t, mine was 1k+ and his was 1k+, one had nothing to do with the other. My account is totally different than his account. She insisted that it was over 3k and she just wasn’t understanding what I had to say. I asked to speak to her manager, and the manager proceeded to tell me the same thing. She said we knew each other and we came in together. WHAT????? I can know 5 people behind me and we can be taking a total of 8 thousand dollars, it shouldn’t matter! If we are all getting separate money orders and each has a different account I do not see the problem. Now had I had 2 forms of ID on me, I would have just done it, but we were on a time frame and I don’t carry my social security number with me and I don’t have a passport, and if I did I wouldn’t carry that with me either.

    So I normally try to hold my composer, but again we were on a time frame trying to close on our first house today and we needed to get these money orders. I proceeded to lose my temper and tell the lady she was a Freaken Idiot and walked away. Now I say this is a stupid thing that happened to me because the lady was obviously not understanding that just because we came in together does not mean we are withdrawing over 3k. I can understand if it was coming from the same account, but it wasn’t. My account is one account, and my boyfriends is his account. We don’t even have the same last name for goodness sakes!

    So did we get the money order? Of course we did, we ended up going to the Publix on 311 SW 7th St. The girl was very nice and without a problem I got my money order and my boyfriend got his. No thanks to the Publix on 13th Street we were able to close on our house yesterday. So thank you for being idiots and allowing me to realize to NEVER go to your PUBLIX Again, and just because the 7th street was so nice and fast, I will continue to shop there instead. (Yeah I know it’s still a PUBLIX, but it’s the closest thing to my house right now). 😉

    What Stupid Thing has happened to you? Tell your story in the Comments Page.

    xo,
    kristin nicole